Leonard Celestin, Evershine Villa, Pullichira P.O, Kollam, Pin 691304, Kerala, India. E-mail: leonard_celastian@rediffmail.com.

I, born in catholic family, lead a religious life till 10th standard. I used to attend the mass and serve as alter boy. But after my 10th, I became a totally spoiled child. I totally forgot about the God and was given to all sort of sinful activities. As I was leading such a sinful life, I fell into a deep trouble and a situation arises that I have to keep away from my house. At that time my friend said about the Divine retreat Centre, and I went there. I realized the sound of ‘Living God’ and this brought up a change in me. And when I returned back I got in touch with a group of youth that was formed to worship the Lord. From there, I got in touch with Br. Johnson; this was a turning point in my life. Br. Johnson taught me the importance of ‘Holiness’ in life and made me to repent on my past sinful activities. This made a radical change in my life, and I started going to church since after a long time. And Lord taught me many things in my life. But still Holy Communion was not so important to my life. Then an incident occurred in my life that made me aware Holy Communion, is the most powerful and essence of all God’s love that has been given to us….. One day, all of a sudden, I fell like a sick person, and my body became so weak that I was not able to get up from my bed. I was having severe body pain as like that my bones were broken, and I started crying to Lord. The next day happened to be Sunday; I cried to the Lord that I cannot go for mass on that day. On Sunday morning my inner conscious inspired me to go to church. I walked to the church with my struggling body. My body was so weak that I walked like a drunkard person. During the mass, whole time I was sitting on the floor and could not fully concentrate on the mass. At the time of distribution of ‘Holy Communion’ my mind took my body near to the priest and I received the ‘Holy Communion’. Suddenly, at the moment of receiving the Holy Communion all my sickness, my body pain, weakness, everything vanished in an astonishing manner and I came back to my seat with a strong body without any problem of sickness. I knelt down and prayed for a long time. Through this incident, Lord had taught me the importance and power of ‘Holy Communion’. And after this, I approach ‘Holy Communion’ with respect and affectionate mind. And ‘Holy Communion’ became the basic in my religious life. Eventually, I started growing in the Lord and my Jesus blessed me with lot of His Graces and showered His Love on me. I got in personal relation with Jesus and He spoked to me and mingled with me as a friend. This astonished me and made me to surrender my everything to my Lord. I was eager to hear my Jesus’ voice for 24 hours in a day. For that I surrendered more and more to him. As I surrendered he took me and guided me along every path which I lead. I will narrate a small incident to say how Jesus guided me in the day to day life. Once I happened to travel to Ooty for some personal reasons. I was going for first time. Early morning I reached there at bus stand, and it been totally anew place to me, I didn’t know what to do, as I didn’t knew the language also. I felt like going for toilet. The toilet available in the bus stand was not opened. I asked help to Jesus as I didn’t know what to do. Then He replied to me to get up and walk and then turn left and right and guided me to the toilet which was out of bus stand. This rembered me Bible verse “And when you turn to the right or to the left , your ears shall hear a word behind you, saying , “This is the way; walk in it”.( Isa : 30-21 ). This is a small incident; likewise, my Lord intervened and guided me in my day to day life in many ways. I was deeply depressed because I was not getting the love of Jesus from the Holy Eucharist, so I finally came across the church, I spend my time over there praying. At that moment I felt a new love of Jesus when I was praying. I felt a something like drops falling on my head then it started spreading. It was really a new experience my heart was filled with love and repentance. The lord explained to me later about this moment. Jesus was cleaning me with his precious blood and made me a new person. After that Jesus drawed me nearer to his presence and reveled his love more and more. Jesus answered her, “if you knew the gift of God, and who it is that is saying to you, “Give me a drink, ‘you would have asked him, and he would have given you living water.’) John: chapter 4, verse 10. At this moment I was deliberately poor. Under the control of all the evil things which the teenagers face in the youth stage, I really forgot my family problems and my duties towards them. i.e., I completely forgot my sisters who were to be married and my house was like a stable, but when Jesus love came into me I was reminded about the duties towards my family, but I did not complaint anything to Jesus about my worries nor I prayed. I was ready to surrender my life to him who has life and was ready to accept the life which he gives me. Jesus began to love me more and more. {Humble yourselves therefore under the mighty hand of God, so that he may exalt you in due time.) 1 Peter chapter 5, verse 6. God led me to the path of praying, he led me to the poverty which I have not experienced. I wondered whether it was a test. When a particular period approached God entered into my worldly pleasures, the house which was ruined, the money to be accumulated for the marriage of my sisters by selling the house surprised my neighbours, and God began to make arrangements in my life. The invisible hand of God granted me a job where I could do my duty as well as be present in the prayer group. I was able to build a new house, get my sisters married in a good position. This was all very fast above all God delivered his spiritual gifts upon my family I would like to say that not giving much relevance to the above said things the most important experience is that the Holy Eucharist is the Supernatural light of power, so surrender your life with love and strength at this altar of light. How broken hearted you may be he will satisfy yourself. He will control the steps of your life. All this I am sharing on the basis of my own life’s experience. AMEN.